Schizophrenia and My Buddy

By the grace of God, I have never had to battle serious Mental Illness. I have my little Anxiety disorder, and also ADHD, but neither of those is serious Mental health disorders.

I do have a friend, who is more like a son to me that does. He has Schizophrenia among other things and although he told me of his condition I never gave it a second thought, because to me he seemed normal (whatever normal is),

Recently I called to catch up and make arrangements to visit. It was then he told me he was unemployed. I didn’t ask any questions, he had been working for his last employer for several years and going to school to advance his career. I left it alone.

We made arrangements to visit at his house and I decided to sleep over, so we could spend some quality time together.

During the visit he explained, he was unemployed because he quit. He quit because in his mind he was not doing the job to his standards. He quit because Schizophrenia got in the way

For the first time, I could see in his actions, in his face, in his voice a person with Schizophrenia. I am not a Doctor, so while I reached out to him what could I really do. Not much. About all, I could do was to be there for him, to let him know he has someone who cares and to listen

So that’s what I did. However, it made me do some reflection. For all these years he was suffering and I never saw it. How did I miss it. For all these years he was hurting and I was oblivious to it. It was an eye-opener. Just when you think, you have it bad and no one understands you, it smacks you in the face as bad as you think you have it, others have it worse.

Your perspective changes and I thank God. Things could be much worse or things are really pretty good.

We went to a group session of people suffering from this disease and the following are some stories from the people suffering from this debilitating disease.

Fear usually always follows the unknown, the misunderstood and from experience fear has always followed psychological health.

People shouldn’t make assumptions about my schizoaffective disorder

“But you seem normal, you can’t have a schizoaffective disorder? I am aware of somebody with that and she can’t work, and she can’t visit. You do both, maybe you’ve been misdiagnosed!”

Thank you for your opinion, however, I do not have as much specialist knowledge as my psychiatrist.

When I was eight years old, I had overwhelming feelings of self-hatred and intrusive ideas.

When I happened to be nine years old I happened to be suicidal.

So sad, just so sad. I thought to myself and then I got down on my knees and thanked God again. I wish I could do more.


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