I write this post to my buddy Max, who is a 14 year old dog, a Sheppard Mix who is on his final days. pets bring us so much joy and we become attached to them just like they are a person.
However when the end……….
Most of my posts are related to Mental Health. While I wish I could say this post is informative and educational about Mental Health, I can’t.
I will say for anyone who has had a pet you know how much joy they can bring. You how they can take your sadness away, you know how much comfort they bring you.
For all of us, whether you have Mental health issues or not, Pets are good for us. They are good for our heart, they are good for are mind, they are good for our soul.
I have a dog beautiful and sweet, his name is Max. Max and I go back a long ways. I first met Max when he was only 9 months old. He was big for his age, but gangly and awkward. I loved Max right away.
We have spent 14 years together, today Max is a big boy but sweet and gentle as can be.
Max brings me joy, Max makes me feel needed. Max and I are best buds.
I am sad this weekend because Max does not have much time left. He has lived the last year with tumors on his body, however that has not stopped him.
However time has caught up with him, he struggles to get to his feet, he struggles to walk, he struggles to go to the backyard to take care of his basic needs. He no longer has an appetite, he needs painkillers just to get through the day.
There is no more that can be done for him. Tomorrow I am going to take him to the Vet, but I already know there is nothing the Doctor can do for him. I’m afraid the Doctor will say, it’s time to put him down, he is suffering to much and I’ve exhausted all medical avenues.
I don’t know want Max to suffer anymore, when he gazes up at me and I look into his eyes and it’s like he is talking to me with his eyes and I feel the pain his is in.
I can almost feel him trying to tell me something. He is saying help me, I don’t feel good, I’m tired and everything hurts.
I say to Max as I pet his head, “I know buddy” “I’m sorry Max” “Everything is going to be Okay”. But I know I am lying, because everything is not going to be Okay and there’s nothing I can do it about it.
Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes
But it’s the only thing that I know
When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes Lyrics from the song Photograph
Max I love you buddy and I always will.
Update: Max went to Doggie Heaven today. I think he is in a better place! No more pain!!!